400!!!

Its my 400 entry!!! Finally we are there... PHEW!

Slowly and steadily...

This morning, I went back to office for "Heng Gang" only to realised that there is no "Heng Gang" at HSR. When I was in ERA, it was so fun, there was lots of colleagues, we had yusheng and there was lion dance. It felt abit quiet today, in fact too quiet... I missed the rowdy times last year... I miss....

Things haven been that smooth for me last year... Hopefully things are looking up. There are so much internal struggle for me. The last month, I felt like I was just pushing through with living ... where I am just breathing and the other part of my body took over to stay alive. I wish life was much simpler like the time when I was a kid.

When he passed the comment over coffee that he is focusing on a very important part of his life, and his work as well, I became frightened. I feel like he is another Mathew. Another heart I might break. I cant breathe properly now, in the past, while I was the one asking for commitment, this time, someone else wants my commitment. I feel like waking up, packing my bag and leaving home to some place where no one is around and I can clear my thoughts. Tomorrow will be a good day :D

I am afraid of alot of things... how can I move on from here? I guess... like what I told Yinle...

"In the midst of pursuing my dreams, I lost my courage."

Its time to find the courage back... God, can you return the courage that I lost along the way.

400!!!

Its my 400 entry!!! Finally we are there... PHEW!

Slowly and steadily...

This morning, I went back to office for "Heng Gang" only to realised that there is no "Heng Gang" at HSR. When I was in ERA, it was so fun, there was lots of colleagues, we had yusheng and there was lion dance. It felt abit quiet today, in fact too quiet... I missed the rowdy times last year... I miss....

Things haven been that smooth for me last year... Hopefully things are looking up. There are so much internal struggle for me. The last month, I felt like I was just pushing through with living ... where I am just breathing and the other part of my body took over to stay alive. I wish life was much simpler like the time when I was a kid.

When he passed the comment over coffee that he is focusing on a very important part of his life, and his work as well, I became frightened. I feel like he is another Mathew. Another heart I might break. I cant breathe properly now, in the past, while I was the one asking for commitment, this time, someone else wants my commitment. I feel like waking up, packing my bag and leaving home to some place where no one is around and I can clear my thoughts. Tomorrow will be a good day :D

I am afraid of alot of things... how can I move on from here? I guess... like what I told Yinle...

"In the midst of pursuing my dreams, I lost my courage."

Its time to find the courage back... God, can you return the courage that I lost along the way.